Monday, March 25, 2013

Simply Love...

Last Thursday I had one of those days when you just have to cocoon.  I had to honor the feelings that were arising in me and be in my own personal box for a while.  After trying to distract myself and analyze what I was feeling and where it could possibly be coming from I decided to just allow myself to feel, without judgement and without needing to "fix" it.

So I went into my healing room, grabbed my giant piece of rose quartz, propped it up in my lap and watched a TED talk by Shane Koyczan.  This TED talk is by far the most beautiful I have ever seen and it stirred up a ton of emotion within me.  You see, he speaks about how we are told what we are as we grow up, and how we either take on those beliefs from other people OR we just have to believe they were wrong, because... they have to be wrong. 

After watching this I took the time to go within and meditated for about an hour, then I allowed myself a really really good cry.... the point of all of this is what happened when I finished crying. 

I had an overwhelming urge to write, so I grabbed my phone and in the notes wrote the following:

It is important to remember that love flows from with in. It's just that sometimes it feels like we can't find it even though its always there, it never leaves, it never turns on us in judgment, and it never sees us and wants something more. It is pure unconditional love. It is god, the universe and everything sitting, flowing and moving within each of us at all times. So why do we turn away from ...it. Why do we not see it when it is right there under our noses or even staring us right in the face.
Why do we place so much value on how we are viewed externally than how we are viewed from within. How we see ourselves. That needs to be the gauge we use to determine our personal self worth. The outer gauge is colored by others perceptions as well as how they are feeling about themselves. And that tends to be determined by how they think others feel about them.
It's time to take the power back. It's time to feel that unconditional love that is in all of us for ourselves.
It's so easy to give away the responsibility of our perceptions. It's much easier to believe what we are told rather than searching for the truth within ourselves. Because looking in is scary. Who knows what might be in there BUT the truth is there is only love. Anything else is just smoke and mirrors. A distraction from the amazing ness of the light we each hold within us.
Maybe it's scary to see that light and know we are amazing and to know we are love at our core, in our deepest places. Maybe we are scared that once connected to that love our lives will appear wanting. That we haven't fulfilled the PLAN. That we might have to make changes and the ripple effects of those changes could create chaos in our world.
But sometimes chaos is good, sometimes it is needed and change is ever present whether we want it or not because that's life. Life is change and growth. So why not make conscious changes. Look in and see what is not working anymore. What does not line up with you and make some choices, some changes. Be proactive instead of letting life live you maybe it's time to live life...

It came out of me like verbal diarrhea and when I read it over I was a little amazed so I wanted to share it with all of you who take the time to read my blog :) 

Self love is so important and if we could drop the fear of how we are viewed externally and run with the love that courses through our veins I feel the world would benefit.

But hey, these are just one girls thoughts....
 
 
Here is the link for the TED Talk that I speak of above: http://www.ted.com/talks/shane_koyczan_to_this_day_for_the_bullied_and_beautiful.html
 
I encourage eveyone to watch this with an open mind and an open heart.
 
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